It was raining when I confessed

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Nothing really prepares you for anything
Even though you’ve slept the night before
And swore that you were in dreamland
Well in fact, you’re levitating on your bunk
Practicing aloud, what to say and what not

And then you looked at the clock and it is morning
You’ve fell from your bed without knowing
And realized physical pain compares nothing
To a forthcoming and inevitable ending

But I told myself, Today is the day
for tomorrow will be a different story

Today I will tell you everything
Pour my heart out and confess
Lay down my cards and make myself known

I will tell you a story of a long time ago
Of a girl who loved a boy
And woke up the day after, chasing a dream

I will tell you every thing
And make the littlest of things known
Even to the point—
Of breaking my heart once again.

He stopped like he needs to

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Yuri was one of those girls who liked to be alone. One time, she went with her friends in Baguio City. It was the coldest time of the season and she did not bother bringing a jacket or a sweater. All she brought was a blue shawl that was as thin as her hanky.

There were five of them who went to Baguio. All of them girls. She counted again and regretted why she came. She hated odd numbers. And in this group, it looked like she was the fifth—the one with no partner. She’s close to the four girls but the tendency when you’re with a group that has an odd number is that one will always be left behind. In this case, that would be her.

The next morning, Yuri and her four friends decided to walk along Session Road. It was a busy day. A lot of people were heading on different directions. Yuri hated the crowd. It made her anxious.

“Yuri, aren’t you cold?” asked one her friends. She was wearing a red trench coat and black, knitted bonnet that covered both her ears.

Yuri shrugged and continued walking. She was not cold. But she noticed her hands were starting to dry and get numbed.

As they were walking, weaving through the thick crowd, Yuri slowed down. She felt so out of place. She watched her four friends getting a distance until all she saw was the vast crowd. She lost them.

She escaped the crowd and went to the other side of the road. There were less people. She went straight ahead and saw the park. She looked around and counted the people. She liked counting. One-two-three-four…. She repeated. There were just four of them. Yuri smiled. It’s an even number. She liked even number.

Yuri sat on the bench. She just sat there. Not knowing that her four other friends were dead tired looking for her. She had no phone. She left it in the hotel. She closed her eyes and felt the cold air touched her numb cheeks. She went into dreamland.

Yuri did not know how long she’s been sitting on the bench. But when she woke up, a man was standing in front of her. He was smiling and was looking intently at her. She did not say anything. He looked at her. He scanned her face down to her pair of blue Chucks. Yuri gave him a weird look. At his feet she noticed different kinds of sweets.

“Want to buy some?” said the man, still smiling at her.

Yuri went through the goodies. There were 15 kinds. It’s an odd number.

She went through the 15 kinds of sweets. Her eyes stopped on the peanuts that are coated with sugar. She loved peanuts. But she also liked the tamarind balls with sugar. She also liked the anchovies coated in sweet chili. She could not decide. She was starting to crave and salivate.

“I have no money,” she told the man. Her face was both apologetic and disappointed.

The man took some of the coated peanuts, put it in a small paper bag and gave it to Yuri.

“Here, eat it. Don’t bother paying,” he said and left. Just like that. He left.

Love Without Frontiers

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My love for you it knows no bounds
in spite of change in our surrounds
or times beset that joy confounds
the feeling burns consistent.

My love for you it knows no bounds
this of all I have most grounds
that which solely me dumbfounds
is but that you are distant.

My love for you it knows no bounds
its resilience my brain astounds
as if shielded from the sorry sounds
somehow remains resistant.

My love for you it knows no bounds
the light is there through all the downs
the warmth around my soul resounds
like force majeur persistent.

My love for you it knows no bounds
a longing ache my waking hounds
to see your smile my heart it pounds
to fix the day insistent.

Running

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Basketball and boxing are the two most popular sports in the Philippines but convincingly, running remains to be one of the favorites. The popularity of running has grown exponentially in recent years, with weekend races and fun runs scheduled nearly every weekend, in every parts of the country.

I am a fan of running. It’s not because I am sporty but because this is the only activity that I know of that doesn’t require one to join a team. Running, in my opinion is an awesome individualistic sport. Your only competition is yourself.

When I was in high school, in my great attempt to join a sports club (because everyone does), I tried for the girls’ volleyball team. I didn’t get in of course. I just shamed myself in front of my classmates because I couldn’t pass the ball into the other side. What a jinks! My brother was into basketball so when he wasn’t using the half court in our house, I would try to dribble and shoot. But I stank at it too.

In college, running was the only sport I engaged myself into and felt quite good at it. My professor asked my friend and I if we could try out for the college’s varsity. I didn’t join. My friend did and she got in immediately. She’s a sprinter. From the very beginning, her body was cut out for running. She’s so skinny that she floated when she’s running.

When I started working, I joined various running events. But I wasn’t really confident enough to join the full marathon (42.195 km). I got scared as I don’t have proper training (or I felt that I was not trained enough). The farthest I got was the 16km event. I still dream of running the marathon though. It’s in my bucket list.

I was a bit lucky to be working near my university that encourages running not only as a sport but as a way of life. The university has allotted specific lane for runners. Weekend at the university is often for runners and running enthusiasts.

I still run. And I still enjoy running.

Yes, I still run. Take that literally and figuratively. 

There Really Is No Place Like Home

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No place like my home anyway.  Sometimes even if you aren’t originally from a city/village/town/field it captures you and if you leave you feel always the desire to go back.  If you do so then only at that point can you know if it is really home by how you feel upon your return.  I was here at a seminal point in my youth, now I am back. Now I am home.